Friday, November 28, 2014

Month Eleven

Precious Leavitt,
I have sat down to write to you three times now about our eleventh month together.  I am not sure why this one has me so emotional but I am having a hard time finding the words to describe my feelings.  As things get harder for me to express you are expressing yourself more everyday.  I have always known with your subtle ways who your favorite people are.  You are now letting it be known.  You leap out of my arms and into whoever you are excited to see.  Your face lights up when you see your loved ones.  I love your innocence and your brutal honesty without words.  You're so special.

We had Thanksgiving this week.  We had brunch at home with Grammy and watched the Macy's parade.  We had a late lunch with your Varney family at your Great Aunt & Uncle's house.  You were so shy at first.  Not wanting me to put you down, or pass you to someone else.  You weren't ready to venture off my hip until your Grampy got there.   He tried to give you to your Nana and you cried.  Not because you don't love her, but you two have a bond that is undeniable.  I am happy for you that you love your Dad's father, I think it is good for the three of you.  I am happy to see you forming relationships with your family.  You warmed up after a bit spent time on every ones lap and showed them just how busy you can be.  It was an exhausting day.  You stayed at my Mom's that night.  She text me to tell me you woke up crying for me.  I had to fight the urge to run right over there and stay with you.  I wish I never needed help getting things done and giving you 100% all the time.  I wish you never had to spend any time away from me.  I was heart broken to think you cried for me and I wasn't there.

The holiday rush is upon us.  Your birthday planning is in full swing.  This next month is going to fly by, and I am pretty sure this is why I am having such a hard time describing your eleventh month.  I am so excited for everything to come I just wish I could keep you little longer.  Thank you for you love little man, you are everything to me.


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